Sometimes I think, “If God spoke directly to me, I’d do whatever he asks, no problem.” But would I? Look at what happens to Jeremiah. God speaks directly to him, saying, “I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” But Jeremiah, who at thirteen was certainly more devoted to God than I am at thirty, tries to get out of it. “I’m only a child,” he says. God has to remind him that he knows Jeremiah is a child; but he is God, and he knows what he’s doing.
I am in a constant internal dialogue with myself. What am I going to do at work? What will the next iPod look like? What’s for dinner? All these questions, musings, and noise. Is God calling me to do something “more” with my life? Probably, but how can I hear him over the static?
Even if I could hear my calling, like Jeremiah, I’m sure I’d have my own ideas of my capabilities. I’d show God my own résumé of insecurities; try to convince him he’d be better off finding someone else, someone more capable. I hope God would remind me, “The Lord gives strength to his people, the Lord blesses his people with peace.” (Ps. 29:11.) God would remind me he knows what he’s doing.
Dear Lord, please help to quiet my mind and open my heart to your spirit. Please help me to recognize every opportunity to serve you. Please help me recognize your voice and touch in my life. And give me strength to live the life you want me to lead.