Thursday, March 11, 2010

Genesis 46:1-7, 28-34
Psalms 42, 43, 85, 86
1 Corinthians 9:1-15
Mark 6:30-46

As I read today’s readings, it was Psalm 86 that caught my attention. I haven’t read much of the Old Testament , but one of the stories that I vaguely remember is of David hiding in a cave to avoid being murdered by King Saul’s men. I’m not sure if this Psalm is chronologically in the same time frame, but reading it brought that story to the surface in my mind.

Now, those of you that know me know I’m not an outdoorsy adventurous person. I haven’t been in many caves, but I have a vivid imagination. When I think of a cave, I immediately think pitch black darkness, cold, wet, and covered in slimy, crunchy million-legged creatures. It gives me chills just thinking about it! So, picture yourself hiding out in a place like that. You can’t light a fire, as that will draw attention to your hiding spot. And as you sit there, the fact that caves are often used as tombs comes to mind. Why is it that being in the dark makes the imagination turn every little noise into something 100 times louder than it really is? Okay, so if I was in that cave, this is the point where I’d be crying and doing the “why me” mantra. But David’s not doing that. He’s praying and turning over his fears and concerns to God. David knows that “you will answer me” and that God has “delivered him from the depths of the grave” before and that he’ll do it again.

I’m a control freak. I joke about it, but it often hinders my relationships with those around me. And it has really hampered my relationship with God. Sure, I’ll pray to Him and ask Him to help me solve my current troubles; however, I never truly give my problems over to Him. My dilemma is I don’t trust Him enough to take care of them to my satisfaction, which is utterly ridiculous as I know He will handle them “the right way.” I struggle with this constantly. I don’t know if any of you are grappling with this concern as well. My hope is that I, and you, will be able to learn to surrender our worries and concerns to God with the faith and trust that David did while hiding in that cave.

--KLR

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