Thursday, April 01, 2010

Lamentations 2:10-18
Psalms 102, 142, 143
1 Corinthians 10:14-17, 11:27-32
Mark 14:12-25

“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.”

The morning after Constance’s death, I drove down to Woodbridge to visit a friend. My van was on auto-pilot. My mind was a mess. I’d visited Constance the evening before, prayed with her, gave her communion, even served her tea and toast…her last supper. Yes, these were good things, but I was still a mess. Should I have done something differently? Continued to suggest she call her daughter? (She said no.) Called 911? (She’d already called them twice that day but refused to go to the hospital -- just wanted them to move her to her favorite chair.) Stayed longer with her? (Her cousin would return to stay with her, she said, and called her before I left.) What I’d done was honor her wishes, honor her choices. But now she was dead.

Automatically, I pushed the radio button. A song was just starting. Its lyrics caught my attention. “I’m alive and well…” sang Kenny Chesney, “I’m alive and well..” I started crying, for I believed, and still do, that Constance is alive and well. She was ready. Even as she sipped her hot tea and nibbled on her toast, she asked me if I heard the music her neighbors were playing – her favorite hymns. I did not, but she heard the hymns, and she hummed along. Yes she was ready.

God’s message continued. Before the song on the radio even ended, a car closely merged in front of me. I glanced at the license plate. It read: “ISAIAH 12.” Though it’s not a reading assigned for today, it is part of His Word, and it was part of His Message that sunny morning. “Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.” (Isaiah 12:2)

Heavenly Father, Thank you for “…bringing me word of your unfailing love.” Thank you for reminding me that trust in you leads to Salvation, to an eternal life of being alive and well with You. Amen.

--MO

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