Monday, March 11, 2013

Monday, March 11, 2013


Old Testament: Jeremiah 16:10-21
Morning Psalms: Psalms 89:1-18
New Testament: Romans 7:1-12
Gospel: John 6:1-15
Evening Psalms: Psalms 89:19-52


“I will sing of the LORD’s great love forever;
with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations.”
(Psalm 89:1)

Whenever I’d walk into church, I could feel His presence everywhere -- in the songs, the Gospel, even the sermons. Slowly, that feeling began to fade away. By the time I went on a mission trip to Sneedville, TN, I hadn’t felt His presence in a while.

The drive seemed to take forever! But when we finally arrived, that positive feeling came over me again. I looked at the sky, and I smiled. I knew He was looking at me. As the week went by, though, that positive feeling started to fade away. I became someone else again, someone that I didn’t want to be; someone who gave up on Him. I was walking a fine line.

Then, Wednesday night came. Everyone from both churches met in the gym. Some of us talked about our day; some laughed, some cried. Suddenly, as we started singing songs, my body felt numb. I felt something go through me, something that I wasn’t expecting. But I knew that it was Him. I ran outside to the sanctuary next to the school. My friend followed me. She said, “Let it out!” I screamed into the cold, wet grass so only He could hear me, and I felt better than I had in a long time. After we went back inside, I sat down, closed my eyes, and prayed. I will never forget that night.

My faith has been tested, but is now growing again as I walk along the path He makes for me. Often, I will ask myself this question: Where does my faith stand right now? And if I feel like it’s fading, I will sit down, close my eyes, and pray.


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