Old Testament: Jeremiah 23:16-32
Morning Psalms: Psalms 118
New Testament: 1 Corinthians 9:19-27
Gospel: Mark 8:31-9:1
Evening Psalms: Psalms 145
Time. I used to find myself despising this word. When I was younger I used to feel like I had unlimited time. I wasn’t concerned about it, didn’t try to measure it, felt no need to capture it. Rather, I simply lived -- laughing or crying in the moment, not thinking of the past or the future. As I grew older, I realized that time is limited. I am eighteen years old, so I am not anxious about dying tomorrow (though I know nothing is certain).
There were times, however, that I grew agitated as time barreled forward without me, taking with it people I love, health I took for granted, successes others would soon forget, comforts of all things familiar, and so much more. Sometimes I became so burdened by this concept of time that it sent me into a “swirling vortex of terror” (Finding Nemo reference) and enjoying the present moment became impossible, as I stood guard out of fear, ready for the next twist life offered.
I often wonder if Jesus also felt burdened by time. Did he struggle living in the present? Did he stress about his future and worry about imminent pain? Did he wonder if he performed enough miracles? After today’s reading from the book of Mark, I think it’s clear that Jesus appeared calm despite time-constraints on his life. During “the time of my life”, I know there will be new hardships and new comforts to either get through or enjoy, but I have Jesus as my role model. He gives me peace to live in the moment, laughing or crying appropriately, not dwelling on the past or stressing about the future.