Thursday, March 21, 2013

Thursday, March 21, 2013


Old Testament: Jeremiah 26:1-16
Morning Psalms: Psalms 131, 132, 133
New Testament: Romans 11:1-12
Gospel: John 10:19-42
Evening Psalms: Psalms 140, 142


“I cry aloud to the Lord; I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.
I pour out before him my complaint; before him I tell my trouble”
(Psalm 142:1-2)

Shortly after Lilah was born, we learned that she might be suffering from a serious illness that would force her to face life-long deficits and challenges. As any parent can imagine, my receipt of this potential diagnosis was devastating. In an instant, the joy I had experienced from becoming a first-time mom was gone, and I was filled with fear and anger. I questioned why something so terrible was happening to me. I felt alone and desperate. Although I had not called upon the Lord in many years, I found myself praying for understanding and clarity.

I cannot explain how it happened, but while I was praying, I realized something profound – something that would change my life forever. I realized how incredibly lucky I was to love someone so much that I could feel so desperate about her potential illness. I realized how incredibly blessed I was to have the opportunity to love a child the way I loved Lilah; and through my intense fear and anger was born the greatest gift – immense hope and faith. Lilah is 15 months old now, and we ultimately learned that she was not suffering from a serious illness, that she would be just fine. I am incredibly thankful for that, but I am also thankful that I had the opportunity to restore my faith in and love for God.

Shortly after this experience, my family began attending St. Matthew’s on Sundays. It is my hope to raise my daughter in a church where she will also learn to call upon God and find His mercy and love in times of trouble.

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