Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Wednesday, March 13, 2013


Old Testament: Jeremiah 18:1-11
Morning Psalms: Psalms 101, 109
New Testament: Romans 8:1-11
Gospel: John 6:27-40
Evening Psalms: Psalms 119:121-144


“Then the word of the LORD came to me. He said,
“Can I not do with you, Israel, as this potter does?” declares the LORD.
“Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel.”
(Jeremiah 18:5-6)

Years ago, I was chatting with my girlfriends, talking about who would be the first of us to have a child. We debated about having an amniocentesis to detect birth defects and what we would do if we found out our child would be severely disabled.

I emphatically chose not to have an amniocentesis. First and foremost, I didn’t want anyone sticking a needle in my stomach. Second, I didn’t think it was necessary. I was in a state of denial and believed it would never happen to me.

Four years later, I gave birth to my second child. It didn’t take long to realize that Ethan was different, and in two years he was officially diagnosed with autism. During that time, my love for Ethan continued to grow. I loved him more fiercely than I could have ever imagined possible to love anyone.

It became apparent to me that even though I could not imagine mothering a disabled child, God sure knew I could. Ethan was the clay and God was the potter – shaping [him] as it seemed best. He knew that, given time to know my child, I would experience the pure joy of unconditional love – something that He gives to us every day. Today, I can’t imagine my life without Ethan, and I can’t thank God enough for knowing me and for shaping Ethan.

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