READINGOld Testament: Jeremiah 14:1-9, 17-22
Psalms: Psalms 66, 67
New Testament: Galatians 4:21-5:1
Gospel: Mark 8:11-21
Evening Psalms: Psalms 19, 46
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
…The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.”
I have recently spent time with one of my adult sons. He is going through very difficult personal trials. He is making some very difficult decisions and, in doing so, he is learning some very hard things about himself – both good things and not so good things. My heart just aches for him. I can’t solve his problems. I can listen. I can encourage him, and I can love him. But the heavy lifting is on his shoulders. After almost 30 years of being his parent, it has never been harder than this.
As I sat down to write my devotional and read Psalm 46, it hit me -- what a hard time God must have being a parent to me. This passage is all about God being our refuge, an ever present fortress. All the things I hope I can be to my son. So it makes me think, does God sit in the car, next to me, and provide me with encouragement, knowing what I go through and not able to solve the problem for me? Does He listen during the countless times that I deride myself for yet another fall, and does He say, “Yes, but, look at all the good”? Does He say, “Okay, so you screwed up. Let’s break this mess down into sizeable bites that you can fix and move on”?
Do I listen? I can remember times when I would be talking with my kids and they would have a glazed look in their eyes. I knew they weren’t listening. Is that what God feels like when he tries to talk to me?
I think my son is listening, and it’s a huge consolation to me that maybe some of my advice will help him move into the next phase of his life. But I’m not sure I give God that same kind of opportunity to affect my life. Yet, who better to allow to lead the way? Maybe it’s time for me to give God the same chance to love me that I hope my son is giving to me.
Heavenly Father, Please help me to remember Your constant presence with me and to let You be the perfect parent to me. Amen.