Saturday, March 19, 2016

Saturday, 03/19/16


Old Testament: Exodus 10:21-11:8
Psalms: Psalms 137:1-6(7-9), 144, 42, 43
New Testament: 2 Corinthians 4:13-18
Gospel: Mark 10:46-52
Evening Psalms: 42,43


I am ready for 2016! Don’t get me wrong, 2015 had some great things in it – travel, a move, new friends, and someone I love deeply found a program that can help them. But, it also contained worry for a sibling, watching another family member play with a disease that wants to kill them, and a friendship that ran its course, as they sometimes naturally do…but still, there is grief at the shift or loss.

“He is my loving God and my fortress,
my stronghold and my deliverer,
my shield, in whom I take refuge,
who subdues peoples under me.” (Psalm 144:2)

Every time I read this verse it makes me cry. Eleven years ago God, or an angel, walked me into the doors of a program that saved my life, led me back to faith, and allowed me to create one that fit for me. Then, I found St. Matt’s. Do you know why I love our church? Because I see that, above all else, love and service are known and practiced here. They are placed above how well you can quote the Bible, how many people you know, or how involved you are – situations I have seen elsewhere. From someone who, every day, battles a disease that wants me dead, and has lived hell on earth, and every week tries to help those still trapped and prays for them, I know nothing matters except leading them to know how much God loves them, and will protect and shelter them.
Today, I still battle fear for family and friends, loneliness at times, and some regret and grief; but those moments have become few and far between as I continually improve on turning things over to God and trusting Him. When I do so, I am more likely to be aligned with His will for my life and better able to be the person He wanted me to be all along. Only then, can I best love and serve others.


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