READINGOld Testament: Lamentations 3:37-58
Psalms: Psalms 95, 88, 27
New Testament: Hebrews 4:1-16, Romans 8:1-11
Evening Psalms: 27
DEVOTIONAL“Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” (Romans 4:16)
I remember crying at a dear friend’s wedding. They weren’t tears of happiness, like the ones that flowed the day my first child was born -- that morning, my tears were like a soft rain on a bright and sunny day, with delicate droplets forming a glistening rainbow just beyond the reach of my fingertips. Nor were they tears of sadness, like the endless ones that streamed down my face as a 10-year-old on the day we buried my niece. Those tears were like a heavy downpour on a dark and cloudy day when having an umbrella does you absolutely no good – you’re going to get wet.
The tears that flowed the day of my friend’s wedding were new to me. I didn’t understand them, nor did I have the strength to control them. My marriage had recently dissolved, and here I was, witnessing an exchange of vows and celebrating someone else’s new beginning -- It was a tough moment. My mind was joyful and hopeful for my friend, but my heart was heavy and kept shifting its focus right back to me. I was alone. I was afraid.
As I left the celebration that day, I went into survival mode. Reaching inward and upward, I returned to prayer…and God was there, waiting for me to be ready, waiting for me to believe and to trust.
That day, when my world seemed so dark and desolate, and without hope, I could not have known that I’d once again be held by loving arms. I could not have predicted two more magnificent days of soft rain mixed with sunshine and rainbows as I gazed into the eyes of my newborn babes. My mind, and most definitely my heart, could not have foreseen a solid path paved with faith and hope and lined with strong, supporting, and loving relationship in a church family.
Heavenly Father, when life’s most challenging moments send me right back to the worry and uncertainty of Holy Saturday, thank you for the grace of faith; thank you for the grace of hope; and thank you for showing me the splendor and strength of Your unconditional love made manifest tomorrow through the Resurrection. Amen.