Thursday, March 30, 2017

Thursday, March 30, 2017


GOSPEL: JOHN 6:41-51
PSALMS 69:1-38, 73


Romans 8:12-27 "The Spirit will help us in our weakness "

On September 11, 2001, Americans and the world shared a collective sorrow as our world was seemingly turned upside down. On September 12, 2001, I suffered my own personal sorrow and grief when I received a call from the Humboldt County coroner informing me my dad had passed away, an apparent suicide.

The surge of pain was immense. I was overcome with sadness, guilt, and anger. Sadness, for the loss of a man I loved and adored and for the fact that he would never meet my wife (my girlfriend at the time). Guilt, for not knowing he was in such a sad and deep state of depression. And anger, at the illness that had plagued him for his life and led him to this demise.

However, during this moment of weakness, and perhaps the saddest point of my adult life, I felt an overwhelming peace. My faith carried me through it all. I came to realize that I will not always understand God's plan, particularly in moments like these, but I know the Spirit is always with me, right by my side, to carry me through.
Nine years have passed. I see my dad daily in my son's beautiful eyes and in my daughter's rambunctious spirit. One need not look far to find God. My experience has proven to me that the Spirit is always with us, even in our darkest moments. My faith has only grown stronger, and I thank God for my blessings each day.

CJL (4/7/11)

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